[REDACTED] - Anhedonia

 

I think it's probably best for me to leave the dnd group for a while or just stop altogether . I've kinda lost interest in my characters, and i can't really seem to catch up with the new updates(It's on me. I don't really have the energy to try at all to really understand it all. It's really interesting!! Really! but...That's on me, not you.)

not only that, but i feel like maybe it's just best if i just don't participate because i don't put as much effort into the group than anyone else and i feel like it's unfair on everyone else.

I first started hating emalia and not using her as much, then corona and now I'm kinda not liking ayla anymore...but now that I think about it, it's really just...me. and dnd. My brain just can't keep up anymore....and i'm sorry. I know you enjoy my characters, and i'm sorry about that. I'll probably just keep going until i finally get enough stones to finally stop.

Also I think it's terrifying you can just...track me down. See things I'm very much not comfortable with you seeing. Not just my nsfw account, but just my private accounts in general. I'm not a public person-I don't like to have all my stuff out there. That's also why i was so fucking terrified you'd find this account again and i'd have to explain myself. i slept for around 20 some hours last night cause i just was...so tired. I had to delete that first blog you found, and now i can't even follow my friend without the fear of you finding me. I can't even do that with this blog or my vent twitter. 
:/